Weeks 3 & 4 - What is your Truth?
The last two weeks have been incredibly busy (or, put more positively, full) for me, and I have been constantly reminded of the second Yama, Satya. Satya in its most basic form is the guideline of truth.
When I first read this I thought, “Okay good that’s easy – be a good, honest person. I can do that.” But Satya goes deeper than that and urges us to live and speak our truth at all times, and I am realizing how often I am actually not truthful or honest with myself.
A small example can be found in this post. At first I struggled to decide exactly what my take-away was from week 3, and what I wanted to write about for week 4. Because of my A-type personality, my initial instinct is that I haveto follow this structure exactly as I set it up for myself. That, paired with how busy I currently am, simply meant that I put it off all together.
But my truth was that I should combine these weeks. Satya has been on my mind consistently, so it makes sense to share. It’s also important for me to dedicate at least a little time to my blog, but at the same time, I have to honor the amount that is being required from me presently in all directions. So my truth was a compromise, something I don’t always honor myself with.
Thinking about Satya in this way really struck me. I noticed daily ways in which I wasn’t being honest with myself: deepening a pose too far or too fast because I feel like I should be able to do it or because that is where my body was the day before, not taking a break when I needed it, or holding back in some way. Often these self sabotages were initiated with good intensions, but practicing Satya has helped me to be more honest and to take each moment and each day as its own.
Now speaking your truth doesn’t mean just “do what you want.” Intention and integrity still lay at the heart of this Yama. Another interesting paradox about Satya is that it must be practiced with the first Yama, Ahimsa, or nonviolence, and Ahimsa is always practiced first. Therefore, if speaking your truth may bring harm to others, Ahimsa takes priority. This allows for the always reliable “if you don’t have anything nice to say, don’t say it at all” to still ring true.
Satya on the surface sounds easy, but this level of consistent consciousness and awareness can be very difficult. I am curious to continue learning about Satya and to observe how I interpret and practice it. I encourage you this week, in moments of stress or exhaustion, to check in with yourself, and discover if you are speaking your own truth.